From the place i found you to the place you found me.
I loved you or maybe i should just use the word understood you well, long later you left me to the place i found you.
I gave you my heart,
you took my soul
someone did that to you too,
before me.
And it was then,
When i got it.
Oh! That's the reason you acted the certain way.
To the place where i see me now.
Because trust me
I myself startled,
like woahhh!! that's not me
That's not how i use to be.
Then it hit me,
not gonna repeat your mistakes.
I acknowledge that
I was too hurt
I might still be
I understand
I need time,
time to be me
The me you found back then.
I know,
i need to do the work
to go back,
from the me you left to
the one i was,
actually more of what i was.
I know,
i need to heal
for i doesn't want,
to destroy another soul.
Someone has to stop this chain
and that someone is me.
I choose to be it.
I choose to take my time.
Even if it takes me years to reach
to that point where my soul is completely healed.
I choose to heal
in my own way.
Because i have always been stubborn,
of choosing what i want for me.
So i choose not to build walls,
but some healthy boundaries.
'Silence is the worst goodbye'.
Reading such lines never meant anything back then
But now they do.
All thanks to you.
How i feel about you ?
Doesn't really matter though,
But i really am so grateful too,
for now i see things as they are.
All that i felt is still left here.
Difference?
The one you wanted so bad from all your actions.
So,yeah for me you are dead
At least that's how i like to tell it to myself.
Because i never fell in love with
the boy you turned out to be.
But the facade of a man
you put on and i thought of you as.
Songs like done for me,dangerously and idgaf makes sense now
Play the victim and switch your position?
Don't worry!this i tell my friends
for i have enough light in me
to show me the road back to light
i do have and that was the reason
you came to take a piece of it
I remember writing poems and journals since my 5th grade.
After high school,
I remember reading the writings of all the other writers and poets.
I thought man! strong emotions does brings out the creativity in you.
I see me there now,which i never really ever thought of being at.
Not always though,for i am too blessed with the family and friends that i have.
But yeah every now and then
I find myself
dwelling or maybe escaping it.
What difference is left then,
between you,a narcissistic drug addict and me?
Escapism, something i was always against of,
you took me there and left half way,cool thanks.
No but really thanks .
Because of that only i came to the realization
of how strong i am.
Though i always have been,
but never truly was aware of that.
Always had that try me attitude in life,
You really did try so hard.
But then again i'm so grateful
for the people i am surrounded with
for they gave me back the strength
to shout it out loud on your pathetic face
TRY ME!
For i know i am more of a secure person
than you could ever be
I don't indulge myself in people pleasing.
I indulge in seeing the good and growing out of everything that no longer serves me.
Was always this ,just never knew.
It surfaced,i guess that's all the struggle's about.
You just happen to be the climax
of all the struggles since my childhood.
Just another pathetic struggle.
That's over. I'm grateful.
I choose my ways to heal.
likewise,
I choose to see the good in you.
Always did actually
But then the shit i hear
Thanks for all the lessons
It's amazing how i am now immune to shit
To get to this level of awareness is simply just beautiful.
Letting go is the best thing one could ever learn.
So, you just go take your shit
and throw that forgery over the other faces like yours,
who focus on becoming popular doing shit
and by degrading other beings.
I never was that and will never be.
Never have been in this business to hurt someone intentionally
and no matter how hard you still try like a psychopathic asshole
to manipulate the truth.
I never will be like you.
For i know the truth
the truth, how sensitive people either become like you or me
either you act bully to hide your sadness
or be vulnerable like me.
Choose whatever resonates with you
and that you can handle well.
For everything got it's pros and cons
So, i choose the light.
I choose to be me.
I choose to earn from my truth.
After all we all are the victims of one or the other things
but again their is a choice
how you want to see yourself
If you wanna grow and heal
Choose not to blame
but to change
and be a better you,
for you
and everyone around.
#GRATEFUL
Songs like on my own,love myself are the ones that will make sense later; give yourself time to heal and going from songs like issues,let her go (and simultaneously crying so hard,all numb,days passing by,feeling like hell) to songs like happy is one hell of a beautiful journey.
Self -love is a forever process.
Go go go
go figure it out
you can do this
go my love
keep on moving
go my love
keep on running
gotta keep those tears
on bay
gotta send them up in flames🔥 (Song reference - Flames by David Guetta and Sia )
I gave you my heart,
you took my soul
someone did that to you too,
before me.
And it was then,
When i got it.
Oh! That's the reason you acted the certain way.
To the place where i see me now.
Because trust me
I myself startled,
like woahhh!! that's not me
That's not how i use to be.
Then it hit me,
not gonna repeat your mistakes.
I acknowledge that
I was too hurt
I might still be
I understand
I need time,
time to be me
The me you found back then.
I know,
i need to do the work
to go back,
from the me you left to
the one i was,
actually more of what i was.
I know,
i need to heal
for i doesn't want,
to destroy another soul.
Someone has to stop this chain
and that someone is me.
I choose to be it.
I choose to take my time.
Even if it takes me years to reach
to that point where my soul is completely healed.
I choose to heal
in my own way.
Because i have always been stubborn,
of choosing what i want for me.
So i choose not to build walls,
but some healthy boundaries.
'Silence is the worst goodbye'.
Reading such lines never meant anything back then
But now they do.
All thanks to you.
How i feel about you ?
Doesn't really matter though,
But i really am so grateful too,
for now i see things as they are.
All that i felt is still left here.
Difference?
The one you wanted so bad from all your actions.
So,yeah for me you are dead
At least that's how i like to tell it to myself.
Because i never fell in love with
the boy you turned out to be.
But the facade of a man
you put on and i thought of you as.
Songs like done for me,dangerously and idgaf makes sense now
Play the victim and switch your position?
Don't worry!this i tell my friends
for i have enough light in me
to show me the road back to light
i do have and that was the reason
you came to take a piece of it
I remember writing poems and journals since my 5th grade.
After high school,
I remember reading the writings of all the other writers and poets.
I thought man! strong emotions does brings out the creativity in you.
I see me there now,which i never really ever thought of being at.
Not always though,for i am too blessed with the family and friends that i have.
But yeah every now and then
I find myself
dwelling or maybe escaping it.
What difference is left then,
between you,a narcissistic drug addict and me?
Escapism, something i was always against of,
you took me there and left half way,cool thanks.
No but really thanks .
Because of that only i came to the realization
of how strong i am.
Though i always have been,
but never truly was aware of that.
Always had that try me attitude in life,
You really did try so hard.
But then again i'm so grateful
for the people i am surrounded with
for they gave me back the strength
to shout it out loud on your pathetic face
TRY ME!
For i know i am more of a secure person
than you could ever be
I don't indulge myself in people pleasing.
I indulge in seeing the good and growing out of everything that no longer serves me.
Was always this ,just never knew.
It surfaced,i guess that's all the struggle's about.
You just happen to be the climax
of all the struggles since my childhood.
Just another pathetic struggle.
That's over. I'm grateful.
I choose my ways to heal.
likewise,
I choose to see the good in you.
Always did actually
But then the shit i hear
Thanks for all the lessons
It's amazing how i am now immune to shit
To get to this level of awareness is simply just beautiful.
Letting go is the best thing one could ever learn.
So, you just go take your shit
and throw that forgery over the other faces like yours,
who focus on becoming popular doing shit
and by degrading other beings.
I never was that and will never be.
Never have been in this business to hurt someone intentionally
and no matter how hard you still try like a psychopathic asshole
to manipulate the truth.
I never will be like you.
For i know the truth
the truth, how sensitive people either become like you or me
either you act bully to hide your sadness
or be vulnerable like me.
Choose whatever resonates with you
and that you can handle well.
For everything got it's pros and cons
So, i choose the light.
I choose to be me.
I choose to earn from my truth.
After all we all are the victims of one or the other things
but again their is a choice
how you want to see yourself
If you wanna grow and heal
Choose not to blame
but to change
and be a better you,
for you
and everyone around.
#GRATEFUL
Songs like on my own,love myself are the ones that will make sense later; give yourself time to heal and going from songs like issues,let her go (and simultaneously crying so hard,all numb,days passing by,feeling like hell) to songs like happy is one hell of a beautiful journey.
Self -love is a forever process.
Go go go
go figure it out
you can do this
go my love
keep on moving
go my love
keep on running
gotta keep those tears
on bay
gotta send them up in flames🔥 (Song reference - Flames by David Guetta and Sia )
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