Something's can never go back to what they were!

How did i get here?

From never breaking anything to break myself.

So, i broke my phone's screen a few months back out of anger because of someone,

and now it hit me;

how something's can just never be back to what they were, how i put so much money to repair my phone's screen and display and yet somehow after all these month, after again and again repairing all i have is half black distorted screen even when now i took so much care of it.

Respect and love work the same way.

Atleast for me, i never leave any relationship (however bad or toxic it turns to be) easily, i work hard on it. Because when i do leave and i am done, i am just done forever. There's no going back ever again.

How at the times of need your family and friend's only come in handy.

How much i asked my brother to mend after i break stuff and sometimes me,

How much i hurt myself, or my family because i was hurting in a relationship,

or not understood or cared for or just taken for granted.

How much can i ask more from them?

For random waves of people who just come to teach a certain lesson or two.

You should never love someone to put your self-worth above them,

or trust them to be always right,

for they are human too, not perfect even if they create a facade to be so.

How more can you hurt yourself and the person you are with,

just because you hate what they bring out in you,

First of all why did you let it happen?

All that i learnt about self-love and self-worth, burnt to ashes.

Why do we forget to practice it, at the first place?

Don't be anywhere close to anyone you can't handle,

your duty is to handle you, work on you, heal you

and practice it and keep practicing it.

Self-love when trained, is something like a textbook lesson,

if ignored after learning for long time, it goes away and

you have to learn it again and unlearning might be easy 

but when you are all alone hating yourself and hurting,

learning it all back from the scratch is more work than keeping it in practice.

So, take a slow pace.

Back a little if you need to.

Never stop working on yourself.

Practice self-love until it becomes a habit and settles into your subconscious mind.

Practice love but first give it to yourself or you won't be able to give it to anybody else.